Pastor John,
I was blessed by reading today’s Random Thought this morning (https://goingtojesus.com/gtj_thoughts.html?tname=rdt08-09). The following sentences from it reminded me of an experience I had earlier this week at work.
“According to Jesus, the fundamental reason that God’s children are hated by the world is simply that they do not belong to this world. (…) Everybody in the world, except them, is trying to fit in with one group or another in this world, and because those humble children of God do not spend their lives trying to please any group on earth, all of earth’s groups hate them.”
For one reason or another, quite often, certain lines of machines (at times most of them) are not being started at the beginning of the shift, and are not operating for hours, sometimes for the whole day. When that happens, the operators that are supposed to be working on those lines are told to do certain cleaning tasks, or help out on other lines, but sometimes, for hours, we’re literally not doing anything productive – people just hang out, talk, etc. That was the case one of the days this week. Other people from my “block” joined other people on other lines or in other operator stations, who also had nothing to do, and I was left at my station by myself. After a while I had the thought to start walking around, and see if I could join one of those groups and be engaged in their conversation, but when I started approaching a certain pair of guys, I could tell (and feel) that I didn’t need to be a part of the kind of fellowship they were having; so I walked past them, and tried to see if there were others I could possibly hang out with. But in each case I had the same feeling: In that particular moment I wasn’t to be involved in any of those groups or conversations. So, I slowly walked back to my block, sat down on one of the furnitures, and I was just sitting there. Then I had the thought that if people saw that I was just sitting there by myself, not really interested in whatever fun activities or chats others were having, they might think that I’m an “oddball” or some kind of an outsider. Now the wonderful thing after having this thought was that it didn’t bother me for one second. In my heart I felt zero fear or worry over what people might think. I knew exactly why I was feeling the way I was feeling, and I felt no urge whatsoever to try to convince people that I am not the way they might think. Sitting there by myself, I felt as happy and content as one can be, feeling that God, in that moment, was showing me, I was not of this world.
Now, during my first week at the factory, I had a couple of amazing conversations with people (Ukrainians), having the opportunity to share some of my testimonies and the truth with them (I am not sure I had ever felt the leading and the power of the Spirit while sharing with people, as much as I did in these specific situations); also, I feel that in general I have a good relationship with most of my colleagues. So it is not that I am trying to separate myself or be different, but in this particular moment, I felt like the Spirit was separating me from everyone else, and it didn’t feel uncomfortable at all. For which I am very thankful, because I know I couldn’t have done that to myself – it was Jesus who had done something in my heart that made me feel the way I did.
Zoli