Pastor John,
I’ve been thinking a lot about things Jesus has been telling us lately. When Tracey testified last night, it felt so good!
This is what Jesus has been talking to me about for the past few months:
I’ve had struggles with those spirits, having thoughts like, “I wish I was like so and so” or “Why can’t I do that like so and so” or “Why is so and so like that”. I don’t like those feelings and I have sincerely been asking Jesus to help me. His answers have been so sweet. First it started with being thankful. He told me that if I am thankful for what he had done for me and to me, there will be no room for those spirits, my heart would be too full! When I would feel my thankfulness fade I would ask him to help me and he would! He would put me in situations to show me just how much he has done for me! I would feel my thankfulness get stirred again! Wonderful! So thankful he hears and answers our prayers!
Then He told us, “It’s not about you”. That was so big, in my little human brain it covered this small space but Jesus has been showing me that statement covers a multitude of things/situations.
Last night when I went to bed, Jesus was showing me that when I entertain those spirits and let them in, it is me saying I’m not satisfied with or thankful for who Jesus is making me to be, that I’m telling Jesus that I’m not happy with him. That made my heart hurt, but it opened my eyes and my heart to how Jesus sees some things.
Everything we are, every talent, every testimony, every good moment and bad is Jesus. And everything he does for us and to us is molding us to be the person he desires us to be; it is a little step closer to home.
I am not the same person I was when Jesus brought me here. The old girl is dead…..good riddance! Praise God! I’m thankful for my life and my family, both are precious gifts from God. As I sit here and think about this body that Jesus has put together my heart is filled with thankfulness, for each one! Together we are a pretty sweet body!
Michelle