Uncle John,
I loved what you were saying tonight. That’s along the same lines as what Jesus did for me a couple months ago.
For several years I had almost this overwhelming fear of getting closer to Jesus because of the suffering that it would bring. I didn’t want to go through some of the bad things that you hear some of God’s people going through. I wasn’t afraid to be hurt or to suffer, but I didn’t want anyone around me to suffer with me or because of me. Kind of like Job’s family being taken away while God was testing Job. For years I’ve been too scared to pray for the hotter fire. I was telling Aaron all this one night a couple months ago and I love what he told me! It lifted the biggest burden off of me that I began sobbing. He told me that God isn’t unjust. He’s not going to do anything to anybody that they don’t need. I knew that, but I guess it never really sunk in. I don’t know why but it’s like I had truly heard it for the first time. Like with your mother, she needed to be taken early to save her. What love there is in that! It made me feel like “I could have had a V8”, but I was so thankful for the relief it brought me! I felt like I had so much more faith after that!
~Abby