Hey Pastor John,
I had to tell you about all these wonderful things I have been feeling.
First, Jesus has been giving me some sweet testimonies, helping me find things, sending me things I need and letting me know he’s here taking care of me! The encouragement that Jesus has let me feel, it is overwhelming. Between what he has been doing for me and listening to the OT cd’s* and hearing the wonderful testimonies from Tim and Bess, Sandy, Jimmy…I feel like I am overflowing! There’s been so much! The other day I was taking a shower and I was talking to Jesus and had the thought, if you stop looking at your circumstances you’ll start seeing Jesus! I know this is true! This is my gold nugget in my pocket!
Then, last night we watched this documentary on Israel. It was very interesting. There were scenes right after the holocaust when they opened the prison doors and told the Jewish people they were free. The people were just wandering around, not knowing what to do or where to go. They no longer had homes and most had no idea if their families were even alive. As it went on it showed the history of the Jewish people until they were given their land in Palestine. Those people really went through some horrible things and still are. But as I was watching I kept thinking about Jesus and what the people were screaming in Matthew 27:25 “And all the people answered and said, ‘His blood be on us and on our children!’” It was sad and heartbreaking, but to know it was God really did something to me. I could feel the fear of God in my heart, but also faith rose up – faith in God’s curses and his blessings. Everything that God has said was going to happen has happened. He is in charge of it all. I could see God’s hand in every bit of it, whether it was a “good” thing for the Jewish people or a “bad” thing, it was all God! Just taking all that in last night I went to bed feeling like Jesus had touched my heart with a little more faith and with that faith came rest. That sweet rest from Jesus. It felt good.
All day I’ve felt like my cup is running over! I want to hold on to these wonderful feelings.
Michelle