Pastor John,
I thank God for the meeting I had today, because the Spirit was moving, and the door opened up for me to share the truth. Yesterday I read a booklet A— had given me, it’s about “God’s Work”, and the author is called Watchman Nee. It’s about how God is building the body of Christ, and is filled with wonderful thoughts and wisdom, you can feel while reading it, that the author had a lot of weighty experiences with Jesus throughout his life, but something was really missing from the writing, although I wasn’t surprised by it. It didn’t clarify who exactly belongs to the body of Christ, and how do we know it.
I thought I could bring up this subject in the meeting, but I didn’t feel the Spirit’s permission to do so, so I waited. Finally, we ended up reading from another booklet, in a way that everyone read a paragraph, and we kept going like that in a circle until we reached the end of the chapter. Well, what we were reading was also about the body of Christ, in fact, there was a section with the title: How does one get into the body? But there was no definite answer, as far as I can recall.
A— encouraged all of us to inject any questions or disagreements we might have, so when there was a longer pause, and no one was saying anything, it felt the right moment to pose the question to the group: How do you think one gets into the body? A— and F—– both said some things, and when they were done, A—- encouraged me to share my answer with them. So, I pointed to 1Cor 12:13, showing that the Bible does give us a definite answer; that it happens through baptism, and it’s not a baptism with water, but with Spirit.
I told them that it is this experience by which we are born again, and that I believe it is always accompanied by speaking in tongues or stammering lips. At first, everyone seemed to be okay with what I said, but towards the end of the meeting S—- said that she has a problem with my stance on speaking in tongues, because not everyone receives the same gifts.
I thank God that He gave me the wisdom to answer all the questions and disagreements, and was able to do so with meekness. The meeting seemed to come to a conclusion, but I felt the Spirit telling me to bring up 1John 3:24-4:3. This was the moment when I really started feeling the Spirit touching people, in fact, there was a lady (her name was B—-), who I realized buried her face in her hands, saying she’s tired, and then she started saying things like: “Well, if we have the assurance that we are ‘saved’, that’s good enough, right?” (At the beginning of the meeting I thought she surely has the Spirit, but by the end I wasn’t so sure at all.)
A—- also seemed to become uncomfortable, and I know it was because she was feeling I was speaking the truth. Especially when I brought up that because of our deceitful and desperately wicked heart, our confession of faith is not sufficient, there needs to be a witness from the One who really knows what’s in us.
I know that in the realm of the spirit something very significant happened tonight, and it was, again, something way beyond me. It creates an even greater awe and fear of God inside me.
I don’t know where God is taking us, where He’s taking me, but I know I just need to draw closer to Him, and obey Him, whatever He’s telling me. On February 9 there will be another home prayer meeting, and I am invited to that, too.
Please keep praying for us here in Dunaújváros. May Jesus do his wonderful work in each one of us, may we be humble and obedient to his spirit.
Zoli