Pastor John,
I wanted to share something that happened to me while I was traveling this week.
I was in my hotel room with Jacob, after leaving the job site. I haven’t watched TV in a very long time, probably months. I was watching the History channel and every commercial that came on I had to mute. They were terrible. Jacob was on his iPad, not paying much attention to me. I found myself having to turn the station while commercials came on because they were so filthy! I began telling myself, “Humans are terrible! How far will they go?” It seemed like the few months I have stopped watching TV, it has doubled in perverseness! Most all commercials, programs, and even to the news anchors.
I felt the spirit tell me “you are not human!” It felt so right! All I could say was, “Thank you Jesus! I’m not human!”
Humans, and the nature that comes with “human beings” think life is all about them, and they are all perverse in some way or another. I could really feel in that, that I’m a new creature! It’s more than words can say, or that I can write down. All the problems I have had, or that you see others struggling with, are human nature. There has never has been true happiness and fellowship in human feelings. It’s so, so much more than I can describe. Human feelings are always up and down, sad and happy. Never each for a long time, but always unsettled. The only true happiness and fellowship comes from Jesus, not any promotion and advancement from human positions, or friendships at work etc..
This human body was only created as a vehicle for my spirit to do God’s will. This body is at war with that, daily. Just as much as I love the feelings from God, the flesh hates them. I’m only here to do my part for God, teach my young children His ways, and to be available to do all that He wants. And there is plenty if time to do all.
I came from a very busy, fast-paced life. I know most people have seen that in me over the past years. But this past year, being brought down to zero and being re-built, has been a true miracle. My thoughts and feelings are so different! I used to have my mind so over-worked, it was smoking at times, where I couldn’t even think. Being in that condition, I was unable, most of the time to hear Jesus speak. I’m learning that there is a way to work hard and still hear and see what Jesus is wanting. The job Jesus has me doing now, (which is great!):-) never ends. When I come home from working my job that I have, to provide for my family, I start taking care of them in a little different way. My care for them never stops. They need me doing both.
I’m just saying, I love having my mind on the things of God, wherever this human body is, that’s doable! I Love listening to the Old Testament study in my work truck. The people back then are us! We have the one thing they were missing, we can do it! Jesus said so! Sure love you all!
Very satisfied, Paul 🙂
Thanks,
Paul