Good Morning Pastor John!
I am sitting here in the hotel in Shelby, NC. I feel like Jesus has been preaching to my heart with a soft gentle whisper for two days now. When I first began seeking my Jesus (I love that. I love remembering when I would ask God to show me who He is, what He likes and dislikes). I heard you say, “God loves a sincere heart.” I asked Jesus to please create my new heart to be a sincere heart. I thought that I understood that. I think I am seeing that means so much more than I thought it did. Maybe it is just going in a little deeper.
I was watching a TV show about Robin Williams. Mr. Williams’ life was really heartbreaking. As I watched the show, I could see the sadness and emptiness in his eyes. He spent his whole life masking how broken he was. He covered this up with drugs, alcohol, and comedy. He also gave a lot to charity. I kept thinking, “O Jesus, if only he would have broken down and cried out to you! If only he would have been sincere about his hurt.” During this show, Jesus was whispering, “The whole world is masking their emptiness. There is no sincerity in their hearts. It is normal in the world to hide your heart.”
Oh, Pastor John, I am so thankful for the freedom to feel. What a precious gift from Jesus! Sometimes I tell Jesus, “Please let me get through this testimony without tears.” I am not asking Jesus for that anymore. I am going to thank Jesus for my tears. I pray Jesus gives me a sincere heart, a heart after His.
I am so thankful for being pulled out of that hard world.
Beth