Hi Pastor John!
I want to share this testimony because it is so good to me.
I often hear brothers and sisters in the Lord say, “When I heard the Truth, it just connected with something inside of me,” or something along those lines. Well, I always felt a little bit worried every time I heard that said because that wasn’t necessarily my experience.
Recently, a brother testified to hearing the Truth and it lining up inside right away. As soon as he said this, I felt that little ping of worry hit my heart. I immediately said to Jesus, “Lord, I didn’t feel that way. Am I ok, Jesus? Why didn’t I feel like that?” Jesus spoke right back to me and said, “I lured you here with love.” That touches my heart so deeply! I did not come seeking the Truth. I don’t know if I even really understood that there was a Truth. I came seeking Jesus. My sweet Jesus who so tenderly picked me up and cared for me.
Today I woke up remembering all that Jesus brought me from. I spent some time this morning thanking him and God for loving me and not giving up on me. As I was driving to my first appointment (about an hour away) the sweetest feelings fell on me. I was already feeling so in love with Jesus, but this was so much more. It was such a beautiful and pure feeling of love. I could see Jesus carrying me out of a valley. He is my hero, my everything. I felt so infused with Jesus. The Earth could have fallen to pieces and none of it would have mattered. I said to Jesus in that moment, “Lord, do whatever you want to this body, these relationships, this world, just please don’t put me down.” If I could stay in that place with Jesus, feel those feelings, nothing else would matter.
When the feelings began to fade, I felt so lonely for that place, that connection to Jesus. I can only imagine what an eternity feeling those feelings will be like.
I feel like the Lord has been letting me fall more deeply in love with him and feel those beautiful feelings because that is how he loves me. That is a glimpse of how Jesus loves us.
Beth
P.S. I hope we get to see Jesus A LOT in Heaven.