Good morning, Pastor John;
Some of Donna’s thoughts that our Lord gave her reminded me of some of the thoughts that I had while experiencing some of the worst physical, mental, and spiritual pain in my body than I ever had in my life. I have never had that kind of pain before and since that time during my cancer at the hospital in 2009. (https://www.pastorjohnshouse.com/pdfs/ingodsshadow.pdf)
Here are some of those thoughts (paraphrasing).
– Are you going to get mad over feeling this pain?
– Are you going to get so angry that you punch the wall and hurt your hand?
– Are you going to mistreat my servants that I have set in place to help you?
– Are you going to quit (on me)?
My answer:
No Lord, I’m not quitting, nor will I be angry. I won’t mistreat your servants and I’m not getting mad at you or anyone.
This was at about 2:45 PM talking with the Lord. At 2:55, I heard Dr. U singing in the hallway coming to my room, “I’ve got sunshine on a cloudy day.” Within a few minutes after 3:00 PM, my test for my soul was over. I asked the Lord, “Did I drink everything in my cup that you gave me to drink?” He said, “Yes son, not a drop left.” Then, the greatest peace and joy flooded my heart knowing that I was faithful during those trying times and above all, Jesus was pleased with me. It made all of the pain and suffering from my post operation worthwhile.
I do believe in my soul, that my name was written in the book of life by God before creation.
I do believe that he called me.
I do believe that he gave me His spirit to feel His thoughts and His life.
I do believe that he hand-picked a little country girl named Judy to be my love and companion these past 45 years.
I do believe that Jesus gave me a real, true family in God.
I do believe that Jesus will use everything at His disposal to save me and teach me; pain, trials, misunderstanding, etc. All things are created by Him and are used by Him.
I do believe that Jesus brought me here and will keep me here with my cooperation and behaving myself.
I do believe that I love Him and His body only because He loved me first.
Love always,
Billy