Pastor John
I’m so excited right now I just don’t know what to do with myself. I have been reading the GCC book. It has really done something to me. It has stirred up feelings that I had no idea where in me. Ever since I began reading I keep thinking, “Oh, Lord, I wish I had that kind of faith.” I would read these stories and I could feel something, like stepping up to door and then taking a couple of steps back. I would feel a bit disappointed in myself because I sort of felt like I believed in my head but not in my heart. So, the past several nights I really felt this strong desire for more faith. I been feeling an aching in my chest because I want to have the faith so that that door can open and I can just let it all in. I know that God can do anything but I want to know it in my heart, down deep. I just want to open my mind and heart to God to what ever! Whatever He wants, however He wants. I can’t explain it. The feelings are consuming at times. I keep wondering, “Lord what can I do to increase my faith? Lord help me to increase my faith.”
Well, tonight I was reading, my eyes were following the words and then like a ton of bricks all these thoughts just came to me:
1. It usually takes about $50 to fill my tank of gas, and it will usually last around 5 days or so. Well, last week, I was on empty and went to fill my tank and it only took $36 to fill it and it has lasted 8 days!!!
2. I wrote you and told you about how I had to go to our storage (for work) to find some papers. Honestly, it could have taken forever to find those papers. I asked Jesus, “Please help me find those papers.” I was going to look in an area to the right but I felt like someone said “look in the middle row box on the bottom.” I did, and there were all the papers I needed.
3. Last night, I was talking to Jesus as I was drifting to sleep. These things with T—- have been tough. He has been refusing to sign the papers. But last night, I asked Jesus, “Please help him to realize his errors and repent and find his way back to You. And Jesus, please let T—- sign the papers.” It has been a very tough situation. And then I felt like “check your email”. So I got up and looked at my email, and there was an email from T—-. He said the papers have been signed and on their way to my attorney’s office.
All these things just flooded my thoughts and I just started praising God. These things, Pastor John, these experiences are increasing my faith. I just started speaking in tongues, laughing and praising the Lord. It’s like another light bulb went off in my head. I just love it when the light bulb goes off! I just wanted to share. I feel so good right now I think I could run a marathon. God is sooo good to me, and I’m so so very grateful that I have a wonderful, kind Master that knows the desires of my heart! I can’t wait to see what Jesus will do next. I just keep praying Lord let me have the eyes to see it, the ears to hear it and a heart to take it all in!
Love all of ya’ll and miss ya’ll very much!!!
Michelle