Feelings tonight

Pastor John,

After this weekends meetings I have just felt so happy and so encouraged!  This afternoon driving home from work I was listening to a meeting cd and we were singing, “I’m on the battlefield for my Lord”.  It was so good.  The spirit fell on me in the car and I began to speak in tongues. Then I thought about what I had just sung, “I promised Him that I would serve Him until I die.”  That was a very serious statement and I thought, “Lord I really want to serve you until I die.”

Then when I got home I wanted to say hey to Sandy.  I walked in her house and hugged her and starting talking about how good the meetings were this weekend and different one’s telling me that what I saw was the Aunt Sandy they knew. Then Sandy was talking about how much was going on in the meetings and about “slander”.  We didn’t have a chance to talk long so I came back home.

When I left I felt “something”.  I started crying and really felt to check myself. I asked the Lord to look at my heart and let me know if there is anything that needs to come out. After a little while I felt like the Lord lifted something.  I told Him that whatever needs to be changed, pulled out, or moved over I want to be willing and obedient to what ever correction I need.  

I recently got the book, “Azusa   Street” and after writing for a while in my journal I started to read.  These are some things that I read that just jumped out at me:

– The Lord will visit those willing to yield to Him.

– Humble yourself

– Doubts and fears cannot abide in His presence

– Jesus is real

– God can perfect those whom He chooses

When I read these things I felt like they were jumping into my heart!  Be willing, be humble and those doubts and fears will leave.  Humble yourself so that you can be made perfect!

Then I read this: “Mercy rejected means judgment”.  Oh Jesus I never want to reject your mercy.  All of these seemed to go with the meetings this weekend.

Pastor John I want to walk worthy of these precious treasures Jesus has bestowed on us.  I never ever want to reject the mercy that He gives us each and everyday. This is a sweet life and I’m so very thankful for it.

Michelle