Pastor John,
You know those moments where you really get it? Like when Jesus just really let’s you get it. I got something!! It is so simple and basic and wonderful!!
Last time I told a testimony I had an entirely different testimony planned out before I stood up. Then I opened my mouth and it was nothing but tongues and tears (love it love it love it).
Then a few nights later sitting around after the meeting, I looked up and saw Haskell’s sweet Mama sitting over across the room. I felt like I wanted to go hug her and pray for her. I had yet begun to hug her and I don’t remember exactly what happened next but I ended up on the floor leaning on that sweet woman’s legs. Pastor John as I was there, I thought “Jesus I cannot lean on Haskell’s sweet Mama. Help me get up.” But the more I tried to lift my head, the heavier it got.
Early this week I was talking to Jesus about how much I love when Jesus takes over. I was telling the Lord how much better His testimony was than what I was going to say. To stand up and try and get words out while the spirit of God (let me just say that again – whew!) while the spirit of GOD shakes your body and controls your tongue – and that thought right there is when Jesus interrupted my thanking him and said “Think of how good it would be if you quit trying to over talk me!” And he said it in a funny way. I had to laugh out loud. I never looked at it like that. I can just hear bro Earl saying, “Just yield and let the spirit take over.”
I get it!
Just yield! Shut up and eat!
I sometimes think some may think “she’s too happy, or she’s feeling it too much too often.” So I find myself trying to rein it in. I never want it to be my flesh. But you know what? Nothing in my flesh wants me smiling, shaking, stuttering, or wallowing around on the floor. So I just want to live in what Jesus gave me. I want to feel every feeling. I want to yield.
With my job, I have hours every day with Jesus. Listening to nuggets of gold and talking to Jesus about them. Jesus has given me that time with him, time to eat and grow. It would be insane if I didn’t walk around smiling and mushy! Whew! I just get it, Pastor John.
Beth 😀😀😀