{"id":13511,"date":"2022-12-24T14:23:31","date_gmt":"2022-12-24T14:23:31","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/pjhmail.wordpress.com\/?p=13511"},"modified":"2022-12-24T14:23:31","modified_gmt":"2022-12-24T14:23:31","slug":"michelles-testimony","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/pastorjohnshouse.com\/mailbag\/13511\/michelles-testimony\/","title":{"rendered":"Michelle’s Testimony"},"content":{"rendered":"

Hey Pastor John,<\/span><\/p>\n

I have had the sweetest couple of weeks.\u00a0 I’ve been waking up in the middle of the night with praises and thankfulness just pouring out of my heart.\u00a0 I’m not exactly sure what Jesus has done but it’s been so wonderful!<\/span><\/p>\n

I had a dream the other night, one part of the dream I was in a house and the carpets were being cleaned.\u00a0 I watched as the dirt and mud was being washed away, in my mind I remember\u00a0thinking, “Wow, I always thought that carpet was a dingy beige” but it wasn’t!\u00a0 It was a beautiful, bright shiny white carpet!\u00a0 Wow, that is what Jesus is doing for me!<\/span><\/p>\n

I’ve been trying to write an email to tell you how thankful I am and what Jesus is doing, and has done, but I could not find the words.\u00a0 Today, I was reading a book (Hinds’ Feet on High Places<\/em>), and as I was reading, it felt like I was reading my own testimony:<\/span><\/p>\n

This (from the book) is how I felt when I went backwards one time, and thought I had lost Jesus, you, and the body:<\/span><\/p>\n

“During that awful moment or two, it seemed to her that she was actually looking into an abyss of horror, and to an existence in which there was no Shepherd to follow, or to trust or to love, no Shepherd at all, nothing but her own horrible self.\u00a0 Even after, it seemed that she had looked straight down into hell.\u00a0 At the end\u00a0of that moment she shrieked–there is no other word for it.”<\/span><\/p>\n

But this is what I felt after hearing from you, “it’s not too late, Michelle”:<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201c\u2018Shepherd! Shepherd! Help me!\u00a0 Where are you?\u00a0 Don’t leave me!’\u00a0 In the next instant she was clinging to Him, trembling from head to foot, and sobbing, over and over again, ‘You may do anything, Shepherd.\u00a0 You may ask anything, only don’t let me turn back.\u00a0 Oh, my Lord, don’t let me leave you!'”\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Jesus brought me back, and I started one of the hardest but sweetest trials of my life…. (thus far)<\/span><\/p>\n

“He lifted her up, supported her by her arm, and with his own hand, wiped the tears from her cheeks.\u00a0 Then said, in his strong cheery\u00a0voice, ‘There is no question of turning back.\u00a0 No one can pluck you out of my hand.’<\/span><\/p>\n

Looking back, the awful glimpse down\u00a0into the abyss of an existence without him had so staggered and appalled\u00a0her heart that she felt she could never be quite the same again.\u00a0 However, it had opened her eyes to the fact that right down in the depths of her own heart, she really had but one passionate desire, not for the things which the Shepherd had promised, but for He himself.\u00a0 All she wanted was to be allowed to follow him forever.”<\/span><\/p>\n

Pastor John,\u00a0 I sat here and read that and just started crying because that is my heart!\u00a0 That is what Jesus has done for me!\u00a0 He is my everything.\u00a0 My dearest friend.\u00a0 These quiet moments in my little apartment talking to him and hearing him talk back to me are priceless.\u00a0 I love the sweet, precious life that Jesus has given me.\u00a0 It’s truly remarkable, the deep settled peace I feel in my soul.\u00a0 I never thought this was possible, but God.<\/span><\/p>\n

Love you,<\/span><\/p>\n

Michelle<\/span><\/p>\n

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Hey Pastor John, I have had the sweetest couple of weeks.\u00a0 I’ve been waking up in the middle of the night with praises and thankfulness just pouring out of my heart.\u00a0 I’m not exactly sure what Jesus has done but it’s been so wonderful! I had a dream the other night, one part of the […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-13511","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-netmail"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/pastorjohnshouse.com\/mailbag\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13511"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/pastorjohnshouse.com\/mailbag\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/pastorjohnshouse.com\/mailbag\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/pastorjohnshouse.com\/mailbag\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/pastorjohnshouse.com\/mailbag\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=13511"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/pastorjohnshouse.com\/mailbag\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13511\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/pastorjohnshouse.com\/mailbag\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=13511"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/pastorjohnshouse.com\/mailbag\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=13511"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/pastorjohnshouse.com\/mailbag\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=13511"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}